Wednesday, August 10, 2011

"For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."

For a little background information, I got back to the states from Africa a week ago today. A few days ago I read a verse from Nehemiah and was like Whoa, I totally need to be studying this. So, I have been reading through Nehemiah and learning so much about his faith and also reading these small devotionals that were given to us by Visiting Orphans to read during and after our trip called Experience and Reflect. To be honest I didn't really read much of Experience while I was there so that is why I am reading it now, but God totally wanted me to read it now.

The first thing I wanted to share was this quote, pg. 75 for my team who has them :). It says, "When we learn to see people with God's eyes, we see past the situations and see the souls God has created. We see people that God sent his Son to die for. We see people that have value and worth, people worthy to be served no matter what their outsides look like. We see what God sees."

Ok, so now I'm going to get a little deep, well maybe a lot deep. Fair warning this will probably be long. :)

This section, by Wade Landers, starts on page 41 with a checklist of possessions. Halfway through you begin to start feeling sick because you know where he is going with this. If you check off the majority of the list (if you are sitting at a computer right now then I'm sure you could too), then "you are one of the richest families in the world." He asks, "what are we doing with all our stuff?" Well good question Wade, you made me cry. Luke 12:15 are words from Jesus, "a man's life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions."

Here are some estimated statistics that he shared, "about three billion people live on less than two dollars per day; up to a billion people worldwide live in the slums; approximately thirty thousand children die every day from hunger and poverty-related diseases; and sadly, Americans spend over a hundred billion dollars annually on fast food!" I'm pretty sure those statistics probably have you feeling pretty disgusting because they sure did/do to me. I was reading that last night feeling a little hungry (not for long) and I sit here writing this eating a hot breakfast. Probably just last week I spent some time fretting over money. Well I definitely had more than $2 while I was worrying. Have I eaten fast food this week, surely. 

The passage then led me to read Luke 12:13-21, 32-34 but I suggest just go ahead and read Luke 12:13-34.  It is The Parable of the Rich Fool (AKA the rich American) and then Jesus commands his disciples (and us) "do not worry." "O you of little faith!" Jesus says to us. I think about that verse often. How do I continually have such little faith in the God of the universe and in our Savior who died for us? It was even harder reading that passage after experiencing such extreme poverty, seeing God totally provide for people with very little to nothing but the clothes on their backs and I worry daily about clothes, my car, jobs, money, my future...the list goes on.  Why? My Father was PLEASED to give me the kingdom! (Luke 12:32)

Reading the remainder of that section I could no longer hold back my tears from the conviction I felt. Laying in my big, comfy bed I got up to get a tissue. I look around. Stuff everywhere! (Now don't get me wrong, my room isn't a mess.) I have so much stuff moved into my apartment (not including the stuff at my parents house) that I am running out of clutter free places to put things.  I frequently complain about size of my room. Complaining that it is too small and looking forward to my own apartment or house with more room to put, you got it, stuff. I literally thought about that yesterday! The room I am sitting in is two times bigger than the whole house of the woman we visited in Korah and probably a large majority of people in third world countries. Now don't start to take this the wrong way. I am incredibly thankful for everything that I have been blessed with but I am clearly not obeying commands from Jesus himself! Luke 12:22-34. Verse 23 says, "Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes." If seeing what I saw did not show me that then I am blind! Verse 29-31, "And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well." I think it is safe to say that many of us, including myself, do this in the opposite order. We first seek stuff and then squeeze in time to seek God and his kingdom. 

Many people wonder, why is it that we are so blessed and have so much when there are billions of people with nothing? I strongly agree with what K.P. Yohannan writes about in his book, Revolution in World Missions. It isn't a sin or a bad thing to have everything we have.  It is how we use it. I have no clue why God choses us to have so much but I do believe that we have it in order to bless others with what we have and ultimately pointing them towards Christ. As I am writing this I was going to include the following quote so I Googled it to see who wrote it...um DUH! Right here in Luke 12 written by JESUS! Luke 12:48, "From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked." That is, in my opinion, the problem with many Americans, including myself. We have been given so much but do so little with what we have. So much of the stuff I have in bins crammed everywhere are clothes I still have for "when I get high school skinny again" (ha! jokes on me) or things that I "may use again for __(fill in the blank)__." I just thought about this last night but maybe I can have a yard sale or something and use the money to send me back to Africa. Ebay would never work, I would lose too much money... Just a thought. (Please let me know if you have any ideas.) 

One suggestion at the end of that section was to fast once a week. I can't even think about the word fasting without immediately thinking of the word, impossible. Then I remember Moses (with 60 Feet, the children's prisons) telling us how after the second day with nothing it feels like your blood is boiling. And need not I mention Somalia because I'm sure you have seen some pictures. The devastating fact is that children are starving everywhere all of the time regardless of peace or war. The Lord asks me to fast and I can't go like four hours without getting hungry and thinking about food, or giving in, when all around the world men, women, children, babies starve. 

Wow, God has really been speaking to me! The readings I "chose" (God totally planned it) spoke straight to me. 

Feeling very convicted.  Lord, I pray this is not a temporary feeling but that you would use me and everyone who this has reached in convicting us to serve you with all of our hearts. Help us to trust you wholeheartedly with every aspect of our lives and to worry no more. Thank you for everything you have blessed us with. Thank you Jesus for loving us so much and thank you Father for loving us so much regardless of our greed and sinfulness that you would continue to pour out your blessings on us and that you sent your Son so that we could one day live with you in your perfect kingdom. In Jesus' name, Amen. 

Please let me know if you want to find out more about any of the organizations you can help or want to talk with me. 

Sunday, July 31, 2011

My feelings into words

I found this today and it is everything I feel but I didn't have my own words to say it. This is not my own advertisement for The Mocha Club, though they seem great, it is just literally, EXACTLY how I am feeling. 

https://www.themochaclub.org/i-need-africa

"When I think of Africa, the following images immediately come to mind: Starvation. AIDS. Child soldiers. Genocide. Sex slaves. Orphans. From there, my thoughts naturally turn to how I can help, how I can make a difference. "I am needed here," I think. "They have so little, and I have so much." It's true, there are great tragedies playing out in Africa everyday. There is often a level of suffering here that is unimaginable until you have seen it, and even then it is difficult to believe. But what is even harder is reconciling the challenges that many Africans face with the joy I see in those same people. It's a joy that comes from somewhere I cannot fathom, not within the framework that has been my life to this day.


The images spilling out of my television showed circumstances that could seemingly only equal misery, and I was fooled. I bought into the lie that circumstance defines happiness. The truth is, in Africa I find hearts full of victory, indomitable spirits. In places where despair should thrive, instead I find adults dancing and singing, and children playing soccer with a ball crafted of tied up trash. Instead of payback, I find grace. Here, weekend getaways are not options to provide relief from the pains of daily life. Relationships and faith provide joy. Love is sovereign.


My new reality… I know now that my joy should have no regard for my circumstances. I'm ashamed by my lack of faith, but at the very same moment I am excited by my new pursuit. I'm forced to redefine the meaning of having much or having little. I'm uneasy with the prospect of change and of letting go, but just the thought of freedom is liberating. I want what I have learned to trickle down from my head into my heart - I no longer want to need the "next thing" to have joy.


I'm not saying that Africa does not need our efforts. It absolutely does need our partnership. But for me, I've come to understand that I NEED AFRICA MORE THAN AFRICA NEEDS ME. Why? Because it is Africa that has taught me that possessions in my hands will never be as valuable as peace in my heart. I've learned that I don't need what I have and that I have what I need. These are just a few of this continent's many lessons. I came here to serve and yet I've found that I have so much to learn, and Africa, with all its need, has much to teach me."

Friday, July 29, 2011

Photographs

In case you haven't seen the pictures on Facebook, here are the links to my photo albums.  Hopefully I will be able to post some journal entries or thoughts and feelings in the future but I am still trying to take it all in and process everything.

Uganda photos: http://www5.snapfish.com/snapfish/thumbnailshare/AlbumID=4520312025/a=6483381025_6483381025/otsc=SHR/otsi=SALBlink/COBRAND_NAME=snapfish/

Ethiopia photos:
http://www5.snapfish.com/snapfish/thumbnailshare/AlbumID=4519628025/a=6483381025_6483381025/otsc=SHR/otsi=SALBlink/COBRAND_NAME=snapfish/

Monday, July 25, 2011

I needed Africa more than Africa needed me!

Like for real! We have an overnight flight tomorrow night and I will have to be dragged away! Short post for now but just pray that we have a safe return and that God would clearly show me what to do and where to go in my future. :) See y'all soon!

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Update from Ethiopia

We arrived in Ethiopia last night. Today we spent the day in Korah, a leper community.  Ethiopians are beautiful!! The thing that has broken my heart so far is the treatment of the aminals. I started to type all of the details but I didn't want to make Ethiopia sound worse than it is.  It is just really, really, really sad! Surprisingly, Ethiopia is a completely different country from Uganda in so many ways. Anyways, we are about to have dinner and it is the rainy season here so it is storming so bad but I just wanted to let everyone know we were all safe.  Please pray with us for a continued safe trip and especially for our health.

Monday, July 18, 2011

Update from Uganda

Just a quick update seeing that we have internet for a short while in Kampala. We spent the first three days in Jinja at Cannan Children's Home. What an amazing place! God totally put those children and that place on my heart for a reason I don't yet know. Specifically this sweet child Henry who is 11 years old. He speaks very good English, does very well in school and wants to be a pilot when he grows up. God brought this special child to me and I fell in love with him. It was so incredibly hard to leave. I feel that I will return very soon God willing. Today we are on the way to Return Ministry and tomorrow night we fly to Ethiopia. Continue praying for my team, our health and safety, and the people we will encounter. God is so great! To Him be the glory!

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

It's time!


Saturday we had a lovely party to send me off.  Despite the awful weather, a good amount of family and friends still made it out.  If you know the Chinnis family, we always have tons of delicious food. The sweet Virginia Watson brought all 75 of the precious Gullah dolls with her. Each one looks different just like the dresses. I am soooo excited to give these to the children! 


Packing has been a little less than interesting. I had a minor freak out today as I did my final packing. I have my two large bags with 50 lbs each and my book bag to carry-on. I used plenty of space bags to cram everything in. When I was finished packing, I was a good 11 lbs overweight in one bag with no room to spare in either bag. Trying to keep calm we reworked everything a few times and figured out that the four children's Bible's that were donated was like a total of about 10 lbs. I started thinking, "God, don't you want me to take your Word to these children?" I ended up working them out enough and putting them in my book bag...well that will be heavy but I should live, haha. That being said, we have all 80 dresses, 80 pairs of underwear, 75 dolls, tons of children's fever reducer, other miscellaneous things, and about half of my stuff. Please pray that all of the donations/luggage make it to Africa without problem.


Monday I had an interview with a reporter from the Post and Courier for the community section about my trip and the donations of dresses and dolls.  I pray that God receives the glory. 


My flight leaves from Charleston around 10:30am to Washington, D.C. tomorrow (Wednesday) and I will be hanging out at Dulles until more team members arrive about 3pm. If anyone is in the area and wants to grab lunch I would love the company.  :)  We fly out of Dulles at noon Thursday morning for a 13 hour flight. Please pray that we arrive safely. 


Side note, I found out that I passed the Praxis II and PLT today.  I am just so excited because the only thing between me and a job is a diploma. I can leave for Africa not having to think about that and can start my job hunt when I get back.  


"Because he loves me," says the Lord, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name." Psalm 91:14